Our specialist scan was arranged for a week a later at St. Georges with apparently the best consultant in Europe. I'm not sure if this is exactly true or whether I was told this to make me feel better.
The weeks wait until our appointment was a dark one. I went through so many emotions and went from feeling positive to negative and back to positive every hour. The conclusion that I did come to during this week is that if we face the best scenario of a case of isolated talipes than we are lucky. Compared to the numerous and countless syndromes that affect so many others I will happily take talipes any day. I've also found out, not for the first time in our 15 years together, that my husband is my rock. He is my positive, supportive and stable rock!!
The scan day eventually arrived and the initial emotion was relief as the consultant checked off healthy organs on our growing baby. He checked, measured and checked, the brain, spine, heart, kidneys and many more. The only indicator he could see was the little wonky feet. A case of he felt, isolated talipes. I did however choose to have the amniocentisis. A decision that not everyone may agree with because of the risks involved. But a personal decision and one that for me, was essential to be able to come to term with what may lie ahead.
So the relief I felt in the scan room soon turned to more worry while we waited the 2 weeks for the amniocentisis results. After what seemed like an eternity, the results were finally in and all was appeared good. No abnormalities had been detected. This is huge but my relief was irritatingly short-lived as I began to question the what if "something" wasn't tested and picked up. My nagging doubt that all is not well was still there and it was scaring
me as I would normally listen to my inner voice. Luckily I took huge
comfort from someone very close to me who told me my nagging feeling was right as all is not quite right but we know what it is and it is
TREATABLE!!!
This became my daily mantra.
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