The thought of writing this for all the world to see makes me feel, almost naked! I've often imagined writing a blog but never really knew what to write about and to be honest, I can't imagine my life to be of much interest anyway.
But hey, like everything in life I've decided to just give it a go!
I am as of today, 38 weeks and 4 days pregnant with my 3rd baby. You may think a 3rd time Mum must be quite a pro but no, that's definitely not how I feel. And that is the reason I finally decided to take the plunge and join in with the blogging world.
You see the pregnancy began like the other 2, morning sickness, tiredness and all the other joys. But there was always a nagging feeling in my mind that perhaps I was being a little greedy having 3 children. Could I really be that lucky to have 3 healthy children? I began to worry that something was wrong my growing child.
The 12 week scan came and all was well. The physical symptoms of pregnancy improved but I still, felt low and emotional and the nagging worry remained.
The 20 week scan came and putting my worries aside I was excited to see our baby for a second time and discover if this one was a girl or boy. The sonographer was thorough, I began to feel she was being "very" thorough. And at the end when everything had been checked she told us there was a problem with the baby's feet. My heart sank! She explained it looked like talipes. I asked what that was. She explained its also known as clubfeet. I'd heard of that, my heart sank further and I cried. The first of many tears over the next 20 weeks. She left the room and came back with her senior who confirmed that yes, it appeared the baby had bilateral talipes, that is both the feet were affected. It was then explained that in some occasions talipes can be an indicator of a more serious condition so we would be sent for a specialist scan. But today, we were told that we should go home and not to worry! Now "not to worry" tends to not be in my nature at the best of times so in this instance I will DEFINITELY be worrying!
The first mistake I made was to turn to the font of all knowledge, aka Google!!! This was a very bad thing to do as it was full of horror stories and negativity. The one good thing that came from my Google searching was that I stumbled across a few blogs wrote by Mums who also had a talipes baby. Mums who had been in the situation that I was now going through. For this I am eternally grateful, for the words of these Mums have provided me with hope, inspiration and reassurance for the journey that lay ahead. It is for this reason that I have decided to share my journey that has not yet, really begun and if I can reach one Mum that has been told the news that I was and be able to offer a little ray of hope than I feel the time I've spent typing these words have been more than worthwhile.
I have to cut this short as kitchen duties are required. But I'll be back with news of our next scan.......
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